My Long Term Goals and Revenge Motivation
After work today I surprised myself by remembering where my sports bras and sneakers are kept and actually finding my way to the elliptical trainer without needing to leave a trail of breadcrumbs to find my way back. I spent 20 minutes sweating and feeling really out of shape, but I am so glad I finally broke the barrier and finally exercised!
So where do I go from here? I need a plan. Okay, I’m starting at 172, probably gained some this week due to slacking and pigging out, but I’ll find that out on Saturday. My goal weight is 130 pounds. There are 5 months until the end of this year and roughly 21 weeks, not counting the rest of this week. At 2 pounds per week, there is no reason I should not be at my goal weight before the end of this year.
I have a lot of reasons I want to lose this weight, not the least of which being I reached goal weight last year and loved it. I loved how I looked, how my boyfriend looked at me, loved feeling the muscle on my body and how it felt to slide on cute clothes and look good in them. I let it all go and just piled the pounds back on so fast. I hate feeling like a failure, and I hate being fat.
More than that, I hate knowing there are certain people in my life who are absolutely delighted I gained the weight back. There are people near me who are thrilled to see me still gaining weight, eagerly anticipating me maxxing out over 200 pounds again.
I won’t get into specifics because they are not worth the attention, but I will admit that part of my motivation is making these people eat their words. I was recently told that one of these people called me a ‘fat asshole’. It didn’t hurt my feelings since this person is essentially rotten clear through to her soul, but I vow this to myself: she will, before the end of this year, have to look at me in my newly earned size 6-8 body and remember calling me fat.
By the end of November, when the kids start some sports activities I will be attending, I’d like to be in the 150’s. That’s about 20 pounds in 12 weeks. Then before they start their winter activities around January, I should be sporting my new, goal weight body and feeling strong as ever.
After finally moving this evening and realizing that working out didn’t kill me, I want to take this all the way. I want to be healthy, strong, fit, beautiful, and prove to myself and everyone else that oh yes, I will be thin again. Bet on it!
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hey nothing wrong with wanting to show people they have to eat crow. I have a few people that work for me who love seeing me fail.. personal and work wise.SO ha..I was off for the summer and cannot wait to see them.
You go girl and you can do it. I lost 25 pounds in 10 weeks and now i am stuck but we won’t talk about that part LOL..
Sweet on getting that first workout under your belt! Do you know why you regained the weight? I too was at my goal weight about 1 1/2 yr ago and felt the same way about lifting weights, how my clothes felt, etc. I know how and why that happened. Some was medical, some was me losing my focus. It is important to recognize that you want to get back there but to prevent us from being here again you’ve got to dig and identify what got you here today. It may not be easy but it is part of the journey back to where you want to be.
I started gaining the weight back by celebrating a bit too much and then feeling like “It’s only 2 pounds…I still look good…ahh, it’s only 5 pounds…” and so on until it was over 10, then I started feeling hopeless and paralyzed, like a dingbat. I have a lot of drama in my life (hence the nasty comment I mentioned) and a lot of stress, and I am definitely a comfort/emotion eater and need to get control over that. I know when I reach goal weight, I need to continue weighing in once a week and taking care of any gains IMMEDIATELY, not pretending it can wait until I’ve gained 10 more!